Why anyone would behave in this way is beyond my understanding, but this keeps happening, and it's happened again.
Yet again, someone I considered a close and loyal friend has, for some reason known only to themselves (or more likely unknown) decided that they would twist my words and fabricate my meaning as an excuse to dump me, abruptly.
I know it happens. I know that people come into your life for a reason and that some friendships, sadly, are not meant to last forever, but I thought that this one was a keeper. I always try to treat people as I would wish to be treated so the lies or deliberate misinterpretations and malign extrapolations, are hurtful. How can anyone know what someone else is thinking, let alone tell them that their thoughts are mean?
Some people are more fragile and less robust than others, and I had tiptoed round this one for years, having been blocked once before but with the clarity of hindsight I don't think it's possible to base a stable friendship on one person being the other's comfort blanket, a constantly emollient, scented lipbalm. It should be possible to have different tastes and opinions without one person seeing that as a judgement or a scolding, based on their own projection.
Addressing the lies that someone has told themselves about you from the backfoot is futile. Better to stay silent in the knowledge that this person has shown me, yet again, who they really are. Believing it the first time isn't easy when you're naturally inclined to give people the benefit of the doubt so I suppose that my naiveté is my own fault. Lesson learned? I doubt it.
So here I am again, having fallen prey to someone else's insecurities. Again, with hindsight, I'm probably better off without that particular flaky friendship, but it doesn't really feel like that right now.
If I'm a bit sub-par for a while, the above is why. It's inevitably caused some self-doubt and knocked my confidence a bit but I'll be fine, eventually. Dr Angelou also said not to whine, so I'll stop there.
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